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Alone again

I never thought,
I might get tangled,
trapped in the world,
that created by human,
who likes to play with human feelings.

sometimes I wish,
when I walk,
there may be by my side,
someone will listen to
 all the my words,
my laugh,
my jokes and 
laughing with me,
I still walk alone,
abandoned by others,
and I was alone again.

sometimes I wish,
there is someone to accompany me,
sitting by my side,
while enjoying the beauty of nature,
with loaded of people in the bus,
when I turned ,
it's just an empty chair,
 a bag on a chair,
accompany me in silence journey ,
and I began to be alone again.

sometimes I wish,
when I awake,
there is someone by my side.
which is still in the realm of dream,
smile on the lips,
but when I awoke,
it's just an empty bed and a pillow.
neat and tidy,
and I'm still alone.

I never thought,
I began comfortable with this life,
walking alone,
only heard  their laughter at behind,
sitting alone,
still accompanied by my pink bag.
wake up in the morning,
still accompanied by an empty bed,
which is still neat and tidy.

I began to sink,
immersed in the world,
who created by humans
who I'm very familiar with.

don't you worry,
I'm used to and I'm still alive
in the world that you've started to create
and give me life in it
without you realizing it

I've started to fall in love 
with loneliness and my empty soul .
a big thanks to you .

A girl  who is living in her alone world  


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