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Never losing it .

Dear June please be lucky for me . May ? I just don't know .

I've  get a job but.. now it's bring me so stressful down to earth
I've  met a new friends but ... now they must go somewhere else
I've new crush but .. he also go someplace
He met me but... it's bring to a huge fight
I've a date but ......

It's long pause there . I just don't know what to said .

Everything went well at first but then everything went wrong . And wrong and always wrong .
Yeah like they said someday we'll be on top and someday we'll down beneath into the layers of the earth into how though I'm not sure.

But I never felt that I would always be on top always below and below and below..
With patience and sincerity..I  keep believing on my fate that one day, though not yesterday .. today or tomorrow .. but I still believe that one day my future is bright.

I'll make it . ...

I'm gonna stop it .

I don't know whether this feeling was right or wrong but I think I should let go and keep moving forward .

I'm getting bored with you,
Bored with all our conversation ,
Bored with your drama,
Bored with everything.

Maybe having a crush feeling with you  was enough for me , but loving you , it was wrong and totally wrong and frankly I never fall in love with you.

You're my crush since second semester  we met at cafe . I was there you was there .We looking each other and smiling each other . Still remember you staring at me then I'm getting shy hiding behind my friend back  from meeting your eyes.


Since we often bumped several times, looked at each other and smile, we always find a reason and a way to meet. And I also know you already have your partner even you never told it .

I'm okay with it.. because you only my crush, love the way your smile, love the way your style , love the way you are . It's not wrong having crush on someone boyfriend right .


End of Chapter as Matriculation Student.

How fast time flies , finally 30 April 2013 . Me as a matriculation student become an ex -student. This feeling such a great feeling, there's no more books, no more staying up for tomorrow paper , no more same dishes at cafe (oppsi) , no more an assignment to pass up and most importantly NO MORE STUDY! I'VE A BREAK FOR FIVE MONTHS. I'm such a happy girl.

Okay so here some advice for  who get  matriculation offer and future matriculation students all around the world (acceh). I should admit it, being a matriculation  student is not easy yeah seriously , choosing matriks as your future place for study is such a big decision . You must get a good pointer in first sem to cover up your second sem pointer . So this is my journey ..

Firstly my heart sank when I got an offer matriks in some country (prefer to be untold) it's miles away from my home . When I'm there I don't have any friends (forever alone) but actually that time I  have rough time to believe in friends…