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- The Cendol -

Once upon a time , there was a marriage feast in the clubhouse, at Bukit Mahkota . This is where the beginning of the story the missing  cendol






Photography by - jamal
Dialog by - Ihsan

I don't know when they made up this thing but for me it so hilarious . Laugh out loud . Sampai nak terkencing. Kwangajaaa!Asal aku jadi mangsa !

Hideous

I don't know why lately I feels     low-esteem with myself  . I  just don't know .  Almost everyday I asked my mom ,  ' why I am so hideous ?'  Then my mom will said ' God already created like that , you should be grateful , what if you don't have nose ?' 
A long pause there -----
When some people said 'hey , you already beautiful la , or  some may said 'hey . you cute what  and  I was thinking it was a lie  totally a liars I don't know why I always reflect my self some  big and ugly monster sometimes  Yeah to describe how  hideous  I am
Then ,  when I am struggle with my own conflict  I don't realize the real me its getting faded  I mean  How to content me with others Until today when my friend said 'why you being so silent ? it makes me feel awkward?' Is that what people see? What people feels ? About me 
When I looked at them Goddamn why they're so pretty ? so perfect ?
At the same time ,  Some my friend said 'Why she is so ugly' And I was like  'What …

Dear no one . This is your love song .

I like being independent
Not so much of an investment
No one to tell me what to do
I like being by myself
Don’t gotta entertain anybody else
No one to answer to

But sometimes, I just want somebody to hold
Someone to give me their jacket when its cold
Got that young love even when we’re old
Yeah sometimes, I want someone to grab my hand
Pick me up, pull me close, be my man
I will love you till the end

So if you’re out there I swear to be good to you
But I’m done lookin’, for my future someone
Cause when the time is right
You’ll be here, but for now
Dear no one, this is your love song


I don’t really like big crowds
I tend to shut people out
I like my space, yeah
But I’d love to have a soul mate
God will give him to me someday
& I know it’ll be worth the wait

So if you’re out there I swear to be good to you
But I’m done lookin’, for my future someone
Cause when the time is right
You’ll be here, but for now
Dear no one, this is your love song


But sometimes, I just want somebody to hold
Someone to give me their ja…

#Quick update 11

Mungkin ramai akan cakap aku bodoh atau seumpamanya . Mungkin itu semua benar . Sungguh . Tapi aku takut .  Benarlah kata bonda semakin aku mintak jauh semakin ia menghampiri . Aku bukan menolak tapi mengelak Sungguh aku tidak layak , benar . Telah banyak aku melakukan dosa mahupun silap. Jika dosa itu berbau , akulah yang berbau paling busuk . Mungkin 1000 jauh batunya masih terhidu , atau lebih jauh lagi . Aku pernah terbaca di dalam al-quran . Ayatnya berbunyi lebih kurang (aku buat ayat sendiri) ''Kalau kau buat salah mintak ampun pada Allah , jika kau buat salah lagi mintak ampun pada Allah dan jika kau mengulangi lagi mintak ampun pada Allah , sesungguhnya Allah maha pengampun '' Hati aku sentap , sudah berjuta kali aku membuat kesilapan dan kesalahan yang sama namun Allah masih menerima . Aku pernah berjanji dengan diri aku sendiri namun aku tetap melakukan . Betapa hinanya aku . Mungkin luaran atau mata kasar orang melihat aku baik namun hanya Allah sahaja tah…

First post for 2014

13 January 2014 
It is so painful waiting for the day that will come,  finally  the day arrived . I am so fucking excited Alhamdulilah . It is hurt to be the last person close the University gate , I told you it is a stressful  hearing some people pull their luggage here and there while you are STILL study in a room  loaded of books and papers . 
At one stage I pray that he/she dislodged the tire luggage. Biar bawak bagasi tu peluk .Memekak je. Sorry if my prayer fulfilled.
So goodbye first sem and 2013 . I do have a great year in 2013 may 2014 will be the greatest .
Checklist :


#1 . Goodbye berok  and monkey . I am back .


# 2 . Bonda kept her promise , wuhaha '' ketam goreng '' . Thanks bonda you are the best mother on this earth . 

#3 . Hug and kiss with my girlfie . Bahah love you eja gendut . Be pretty and stay pretty darl .

Done for today . To be continue.

p/s Selamat Menyambut Maulud Nabi  for all Muslims  .