For Real?

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim,

Hi, it's been so long I didn’t post anything but here I am. It takes me a lot of courage to write back because I do miss writing. I know this few days it shocked everyone (include me). Guess what?

--Yes, I’m engaged.

Everyone, including myself, was shocked with my decision. On my E-day I do pinch myself a lot, it this real?  It this me and for real D?

I always kept my stories private well, especially involve with feelings, the first person knew about this is my best best friend Piqa tu pun a year before I ready to tell her (see it takes me a lot of courage to tell her) because I was known as a person who always chasing my carrier and travel and yes never once (well after I enter University) I never plan to settle down or getting married. Is not even in my list and I also do my plan if I not married in Dunya I will travel all around the world, working my ass off and staying with my parents take care of them and I do also plan I can adopt a child if I want kids. 

See.

But Allah has a better plan  

And I told my close friends which is only 6 people like 2 weeks before the event as they also shocked so yeah , so surprise, surprise guys . Because all of my friends know I am very independent and I always busy with my schedule like working 6 days balik pun dah malam and only Sunday is my off day tu pun busy nak buat laundry , kemas rumah and I do stay in my mom’s apartment alone .So yeah, I do enjoy being alone so sharing with someone which is for the entire of my life is beyond from their expectation and so do I.

I do believe in His plan , yes maybe I think is okay I can be alone but who knows and that it the reasons why Allah create “And among His signs is this, that He created for you mates from among yourselves, that you may dwell in tranquility with them, and He has put love and mercy between your hearts. Verily in that are signs for those who reflect.” [Quran 30:21]

So I hope the best for me and him , amen . May we till the end till to marriage and hereafter. .InsyAllah

To dear M,

I feel so so lucky and blessed at the same time because you are such a great guy I have met and knowing you is the best thing has happen in my life . Waiting for me almost 8 years is such a looonnnnggggg year mcm my friend said dia boleh buat double degree lagi boleh jumpa ramai org lagi but you still choose me which is I am beyond lucky . Thank you for approaching me with a very respect way seeing my parents (bring along your sister and little sister) first let them know about we are friend that time , than bring your umi and then until this step . Its feels surreal because I never thought that will be a guy will like me because yeah I am not good looks or instagrammable  (but cute ada la eh no kidding ) but I am very low self-esteem that’s the reasons why I always struggle to get good marks and work hard because for me if people won’t recognize me  as a good looking person I will put my action will speak  louder then my face gituw.

For side note,

Please make dua’ for us to ease our journey and I do pray my Allah bless you guys with His rezq . Ameen and InsyAllah.

Till end 

I still want to kept you as my beautiful little secret because only us know how beautiful it is . So *fist bump lets work together through thick and thin okie. 

Love,

D