LITTLE D

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim, Hi, it's been so long I didn’t post anything but here I am. It takes me a lot of courage to write back because I do miss writing. I know this few days it shocked everyone (include me). Guess what? --Yes, I’m engaged. Everyone, including myself, was shocked with my decision. On my E-day I do pinch myself a lot, it this real?   It this me and for real D? I always kept my stories private well, especially involve with feelings, the first person knew about this is my best best friend Piqa tu pun a year before I ready to tell her (see it takes me a lot of courage to tell her) because I was known as a person who always chasing my carrier and travel and yes never once (well after I enter University) I never plan to settle down or getting married. Is not even in my list and I also do my plan if I not married in Dunya I will travel all around the world, working my ass off and staying with my parents take care of them and I do also plan I ca...

I like being independent Not so much of an investment No one to tell me what to do I like being by myself Don’t gotta entertain anybody else No one to answer to But sometimes, I just want somebody to hold Someone to give me their jacket when its cold Got that young love even when we’re old Yeah sometimes, I want someone to grab my hand Pick me up, pull me close, be my man I will love you till the end So if you’re out there I swear to be good to you But I’m done lookin’, for my future someone Cause when the time is right You’ll be here, but for now Dear no one, this is your love song I don’t really like big crowds I tend to shut people out I like my space, yeah But I’d love to have a soul mate God will give him to me someday & I know it’ll be worth the wait So if you’re out there I swear to be good to you But I’m done lookin’, for my future someone Cause when the time is right You’ll be here, but for now Dear no one, this is your love song But sometimes, I just want some...

Sometimes I can't understand what or who I am . Lately 'we' figure out something well as you know next year I will become 20 years old , what tween-ty ahh no more 'belas-belas' is already 'puluh-puluh ' . Sound old dude . It's remind me of my childhood when I was a child I always woke up in morning said ' Kan best besar boleh beli ini tu lagi-lagi barbie perhh nak full set ' - now I know how demand I was . Now , I woke up ' Kan best kecik asyik  main je ' - now I know how being adult . Well life must go on right. The only thing bothering us everyday yeah everyday is about  ' jodoh ' , well 4 of us still single . Actually I don't mind be single .  Freedom  . I do happy with my life  no boys cool beb . But you can't  run thinking about future I mean a guy will lead you , own a family , your child running around the baby crying ahh to be a wife and a mother . Gotta it ? Jodoh itu rahsia Allah- yeah I know that but w...

Orang kata : Kalau nak tahu jodoh Sebelum tidur  Kena tepuk bantal 3x Orang kata: Kena niat  Allah bagi petunjuk Orang kata: Dalam mimpi tu  Allah bagi petunjuk  Tapi tak nampak muka Orang kata: Nampak belakang (pun boleh la ) Orang kata: Aku pun dengar Orang kata: Aku suka buat Aku pun cuba(dahla aku jenis susah dapat mimpi , gelap je) Malam tu aku dapat mimpi Aku mimpi, Yang Aku Dah Dapat  Ipad mini 2 Hempeh (-_-') Jauh tersasar mimpi tu  Tu lah Orang kata: Aku ikot je.

I skip class today . So bored in class , when your foreigner lecturer try to speak in malay and you was like haaaa whaaatt you know you like deaf people and your mouth open try to catch up his words  , well yeah is good for him learn our language but for me it was D-I-S-A-S-T-E-R , I am who will sit in examination   . Now I can imagine how my grades  will be , ahhhh . Yeah little D bad girl now but best apa ponteng kelas . I have an intention to do it again la . So November , is quite busy for me , do that do this. This is my first time become committee members  in an islamic program . The program called 'MAN ANA' siapa saya . Is quite interesting,  I experience that I can learn and how do I handle program, well is quite tiring but it was great . By the way is religious program so that we can improve the knowledge about religion, it's very exciting to be learned. two boom - my cheek , how worst . Ugly me and my roommate . First time , jadi AJK ...

Have you ever feel you want to be him/ her . I mean  want to be in him/her shoes .  Looks so perfect whatever you want you will get with just finger picking .  Then , when boys/girls passing by looking at you just a first glance and not making the second thought .  Then , no worries any quiz or exam because you actually incredible intelligent .  Have you? Same goes me .  I don't know why suddenly I write it , maybe I motivate myself .  But , this is human nature .  Actually without we  thought that up people who want to be like us . They see us .  Yeah human cycle . We never feels satisfied with our self . Life like a shoes   Looks pretty / smart outside  Try you to wear it Big or Small Try to walk it Loose or  Hurt Then you will know This is my life and Why I Am I  We have different size and different test . God has given us the exact size and fit for us. Our job is to wea...

I thank God this was the first time back to Putrajaya after nearly 6 weeks in Sintok, only God knows the joy of coming home to me, feels like being in heaven. You know how right at home, all things well feel comfortable. So, how Sintok. Okay la life was not the same at the University like first life in  matriculation . Different circumstances, different people different attitude but even this kind of people I do not care what they say as long as what I do it right and do not harass or inconvenience people for me that's enough.I'm not the kind of people who want to figure out why it did not like me or why people look at me preoccupied. This is me, then keep your mouth shut if you don't know and  stopped evaluate. I just pray that Allah  may further simplify my upcoming plan , and the introduction of friendships here that I just remain standing until the end. It's fun when you get to know some  friend who 'sama kepala ' and stayed in same state but it als...

Life is sometimes unpredictable. I do not know why lately I'm too depressed with myself. My fault? Maybe I'm too far away from Allah may this part of the test. Allah may have planned the way my life better. Allah is the  first used for guided me. When I tell my life story to them, they said I was lucky meditating, when I'm alone and reflect upon myself, do I able to maintain this guidance? Too many trials, I almost collapsed. But there is a faith in my heart I will continue to get up and fight, it is not easy to defend something simple collapsing. Let them insult, let them look down. leave. God is all-knowing what is implied. Be patient, O hearts that one day success will come with full meaning.

Perhaps here the fate I know who I am. I never thought that I would be this level. I had hoped to have a life like everyone else or be in their place. They are full of life and  full of happiness. It's time I stop complaining, I have to move forward. Dare I gotta move. I'm very grateful for what I have experienced. I never thought I would spend the night in the forest. I never thought I can fight with them I never thought  I'm brave to fight their challenges. I did not expect. And I'm proud of myself . Farah buat cerita seram lak time ni  Tengah makan mala dekat dewan  terbuka then  Farah : Apa didy?  Me: Apa? Farah : Didy ajak lepas makan ni duduk dalam khemah erk? Me: Ha mana ade Farah : ouh okay , orang belakang kot . Continue her meal  I am looking at Yas and Yas looking at me . Staring each other without knowing the answer .  “Stop comparing where you’re at with where everyone else is. It doesn...

This is called the life, times continue to run without knowing what it means stop, alternating day night.I never cease to recognize something, maybe change will happen, but that's the reality that I need to know. Not now maybe later.This is my new life that I will be confronted in the next 4 years. Maybe this is my destiny. Maybe this is the best way to me. Perhaps this is where my success. Maybe and maybe and possibly. dude it's already 12.30 time to sleep meh , (maggad  I'm soo gemok hell yeah my face ) #16 september , Hari Malaysia We are KLians .

phts & edit  by myself Alhamdulilah I'm safely arrived my destination this evening , yeah it was  long journey so do my heart  began to move away . May Allah ease me  . Bismillahirrahmanirrahim Life , it will pass us by so fast . But really , it's up to us how far our journey is and when we finally hop off . And in those moments before leaving, you must wonder , was my journey worth it in the end? . And the answer should be 'yes' . -mellifuous Said goodbye , turned around and you were gone,gone,gone . Faded into the setting  sun , slipped away. But I won't cry cause I know , I'll never be lonely .For you are the stars to me , you are the light I follow . In a place far away where the water meets the  sky The thought makes me smile Sometimes I feel my heart is breaking , But I stay strong and I hold on cause I know I'll see you again and this is not where it end , See you again

Alhamdulilah , I had three months to gain work experience, true. Working is  more difficult than learning. If I am given a choice, learning is an option for me. I have gathered a lot of experience, getting to know people, know the environment and responsibility. So this is my journey for my first experience working 'part-time'. The experience began in a bookstore (prefer to be untold) , at first I thought, maybe working in bookstore is not so bad, but the thought  dampened when I was working there, worse, tired and sadistic. There are divided into their department , but I was sooooo unlucky to get the magazine department . Honestly I'm not very interested in the magazine, the day I was interviewed , I may be placed as cashier but this may be my soul mate. At that time I worked in the care of my magazine  boss. But the knowledge that could be passed to me just 2 weeks. I feel myself great because I can handle a difficult  department. (wahaha)...

After three months of waiting, finally the question for ex- students of matriculation was looking forward unanswered at 12 pm today .I feel scared to know what's going to happen, whether I'm pleased or not. I never stop to pray  begging  Allah to facilitate the allegations that have been designated and set my faith and be a brave to know what was in the plan of Allah. I have already know the answered of  the question. I personally could never decipher the feeling when I see the answer is already there. Not sad. Not happy. I just don't know. Maybe this is my destiny  and maybe this is the course of my life that I want to continue . Although at  first I feel heavy heart to accept but do I have other options?. Sometimes we have no choice just the way we make decisions that distinguish it. Sometimes what we dream about things not necessarily it could be reach . Maybe this would be an extremely appropriate. I resigned. I'm pleased. I accept it with a ...

Some people may say why you so slow... but they didn't know what you're great in. Some people may say why you looks so horrible .... but they didn't know your inner beauty is . Some people may say why you always make trouble to them ... but they do not realize that you had lightened their burden. Some people may say why you so arrogant ... but they didn't know  that you are a good person. Some people may say you're out from their standard ... but they didn't realize their are out of standard to be with you . and etc.. Why we always wasting  our time to figure out what they will , might , could be said. Why we always wasting our day to looks perfect while we already  know no body is perfect . And why we always think what 'they said' , those people will say , those people will judge . And why we should scarified our happiness our comfortable because sake of them . Just be yourself . Don't wasting your time , day , minute and second ...

Alhamdulilah , My first wishlist finally accomplish ..... I'm so happy . What it is ? naa just treat my le'family a dinner . My first salary. I ma so proud . Now for second wishlist ..... Just wait yeah coming soon ........... love the combination peach and red .  phts & edit by myself “The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.”  ―  Eleanor Roosevelt

phts & edit by myself  Someone once asked me, whether I am an anti-to guy? . For them, I am different from the  other girls. Haha . It's kind of weird  question actually. Do I looks like lesbian ?  Agaga..  For me,  I was happy with the people around me,just enough and yes I been disappointed in a relationship and have a very rough time to recover it, that's why I'm afraid to fall in love again.  After a year , I be single and a year I'm try to  hide and blocking my feeling to  fall in love again . But the more I run the more I am close. Allowing a stranger present in my life and want to know more than a friend,  for me is hard to do, I want to accept him but at the same time the door remains closed my heart to accept anyone.  Will you willing to wait until I am ready ?  '' Ya Allah jika dia benar untuk ku dekatkan lah hatinya dengan hati ku , jika dia bukan milikku damaikan lah hati ku deng...

phts&edit by myself  Dear June please be lucky for me . May ? I just don't know . I've  get a job but.. now it's bring me so stressful down to earth I've  met a new friends but ... now they must go somewhere else I've new crush but .. he also go someplace He met me but... it's bring to a huge fight I've a date but ...... --------------------- It's long pause there . I just don't know what to said . Everything went well at first but then everything went wrong . And wrong and always wrong . Yeah like they said someday we'll be on top and someday we'll down beneath into the layers of the earth into how though I'm not sure. But I never felt that I would always be on top always below and below and below.. But With patience and sincerity..I  keep believing on my fate that one day, though not yesterday .. today or tomorrow .. but I still believe that one day my future is bright. I'll make it . ...

How fast time flies , finally 30 April 2013 . Me as a matriculation student become an ex -student. This feeling such a great feeling, there's no more books, no more staying up for tomorrow paper , no more same dishes at cafe (oppsi) , no more an assignment to pass up and most importantly NO MORE STUDY! I'VE A BREAK FOR FIVE MONTHS. I'm such a happy girl. Okay so here some advice for  who get  matriculation offer and future matriculation students all around the world (acceh). I should admit it, being a matriculation  student is not easy yeah seriously , choosing matriks as your future place for study is such a big decision . You must get a good pointer in first sem to cover up your second sem pointer . So this is my journey .. Firstly my heart sank when I got an offer matriks in some country (prefer to be untold) it's miles away from my home . When I'm there I don't have any friends (forever alone) but actually that time I  have r...