LITTLE D

life is like a movie movies that never end without any advertisement without  stop button  nor rewind button  continue to play  directed by world you and I are the main actors without being given any character will be held without direction, without camera on the world stage directly maybe you are an extras actor  or maybe you are a hero that you are playing  on  my stage  or maybe I only side actress  or maybe I am  a bad actor that I was playing at  your stage  this movie will continue to play play and play and play  until  death to come and  pick intrusion  without telling so cruel  the world's leading  without any indication  full of surprise and mystery  you and me  had acted  non-stop  continue only tested by be material to the experimental by world  you and me...

You're beautiful   With trendy clothing  way as model  view full vamp You walk staring at the sky  without looking  earth you step on You laughed hysterically high  with the intention of watching you You pampering all men to be of pampering you hope the man addict will be with you You caress him  without dignity  that you want  there men here man  You feel great  get men when you sear  all will leave you  throw you  like rotten garbage  you just know  real men who men  Truly ,  sick with   people want attention seeker 

You know  my past , You know everything about me , You always showed interest in hearing Sometimes I hide from you , My intention is not to deceive you, however, maybe I'm not ready, to open my heart, to share stories, share laughter , share the sadness , share the joy , share the feeling, Old memories too painful , for me to swallow, indeed , painful and bitter, I see your efforts, You always make me happy You accept all my flaws, I see, but I did not dare, to start again, when you say 'I love you', for the first time , in your unique  language , I was silent for a moment, lost to say , lost in my own world, Would you hold my hand , when I'm ready , Would you hug me, when I'm ready , Would you wait for me, when I'm ready , I need a little more time, to build strength, again, to build trust, again, to build confidence, again, share with someone new, and I hope someone is you, Just a little more time , Would you wait for that moment, Please...

Once upon a time , there was a marriage feast in the clubhouse, at Bukit Mahkota . This is where the beginning of the story the missing  cendol Photography by - jamal Dialog by - Ihsan I don't know when they made up this thing but for me it so hilarious . Laugh out loud . Sampai nak terkencing. Kwangajaaa!Asal aku jadi mangsa !

I don't know why lately I feels     low-esteem with myself  . I  just don't know .  Almost everyday I asked my mom ,  ' why I am so hideous ?'  Then my mom will said ' God already created like that , you should be grateful , what if you don't have nose ?'  A long pause there ----- When some people said 'hey , you already beautiful la , or  some may said 'hey . you cute what  and  I was thinking it was a lie  totally a liars I don't know why I always reflect my self some  big and ugly monster sometimes  Yeah to describe how  hideous  I am Then ,  when I am struggle with my own conflict  I don't realize the real me its getting faded  I mean  How to content me with others Until today when my friend said 'why you being so silent ? it makes me feel awkward?' Is that what people see? What people feels ? About me  ...

I like being independent Not so much of an investment No one to tell me what to do I like being by myself Don’t gotta entertain anybody else No one to answer to But sometimes, I just want somebody to hold Someone to give me their jacket when its cold Got that young love even when we’re old Yeah sometimes, I want someone to grab my hand Pick me up, pull me close, be my man I will love you till the end So if you’re out there I swear to be good to you But I’m done lookin’, for my future someone Cause when the time is right You’ll be here, but for now Dear no one, this is your love song I don’t really like big crowds I tend to shut people out I like my space, yeah But I’d love to have a soul mate God will give him to me someday & I know it’ll be worth the wait So if you’re out there I swear to be good to you But I’m done lookin’, for my future someone Cause when the time is right You’ll be here, but for now Dear no one, this is your love song But sometimes, I just want some...

Mungkin ramai akan cakap aku bodoh atau seumpamanya . Mungkin itu semua benar . Sungguh . Tapi aku takut .  Benarlah kata bonda semakin aku mintak jauh semakin ia menghampiri . Aku bukan menolak tapi mengelak Sungguh aku tidak layak , benar . Telah banyak aku melakukan dosa mahupun silap. Jika dosa itu berbau , akulah yang berbau paling busuk . Mungkin 1000 jauh batunya masih terhidu , atau lebih jauh lagi . Aku pernah terbaca di dalam al-quran . Ayatnya berbunyi lebih kurang (aku buat ayat sendiri) ''Kalau kau buat salah mintak ampun pada Allah , jika kau buat salah lagi mintak ampun pada Allah dan jika kau mengulangi lagi mintak ampun pada Allah , sesungguhnya Allah maha pengampun '' Hati aku sentap , sudah berjuta kali aku membuat kesilapan dan kesalahan yang sama namun Allah masih menerima . Aku pernah berjanji dengan diri aku sendiri namun aku tetap melakukan . Betapa hinanya aku . Mungkin luaran atau mata kasar orang melihat aku baik...