LITTLE D

Alhamdulilah , I had three months to gain work experience, true. Working is  more difficult than learning. If I am given a choice, learning is an option for me. I have gathered a lot of experience, getting to know people, know the environment and responsibility. So this is my journey for my first experience working 'part-time'. The experience began in a bookstore (prefer to be untold) , at first I thought, maybe working in bookstore is not so bad, but the thought  dampened when I was working there, worse, tired and sadistic. There are divided into their department , but I was sooooo unlucky to get the magazine department . Honestly I'm not very interested in the magazine, the day I was interviewed , I may be placed as cashier but this may be my soul mate. At that time I worked in the care of my magazine  boss. But the knowledge that could be passed to me just 2 weeks. I feel myself great because I can handle a difficult  department. (wahaha)...

After three months of waiting, finally the question for ex- students of matriculation was looking forward unanswered at 12 pm today .I feel scared to know what's going to happen, whether I'm pleased or not. I never stop to pray  begging  Allah to facilitate the allegations that have been designated and set my faith and be a brave to know what was in the plan of Allah. I have already know the answered of  the question. I personally could never decipher the feeling when I see the answer is already there. Not sad. Not happy. I just don't know. Maybe this is my destiny  and maybe this is the course of my life that I want to continue . Although at  first I feel heavy heart to accept but do I have other options?. Sometimes we have no choice just the way we make decisions that distinguish it. Sometimes what we dream about things not necessarily it could be reach . Maybe this would be an extremely appropriate. I resigned. I'm pleased. I accept it with a ...

Some people may say why you so slow... but they didn't know what you're great in. Some people may say why you looks so horrible .... but they didn't know your inner beauty is . Some people may say why you always make trouble to them ... but they do not realize that you had lightened their burden. Some people may say why you so arrogant ... but they didn't know  that you are a good person. Some people may say you're out from their standard ... but they didn't realize their are out of standard to be with you . and etc.. Why we always wasting  our time to figure out what they will , might , could be said. Why we always wasting our day to looks perfect while we already  know no body is perfect . And why we always think what 'they said' , those people will say , those people will judge . And why we should scarified our happiness our comfortable because sake of them . Just be yourself . Don't wasting your time , day , minute and second ...

Alhamdulilah , My first wishlist finally accomplish ..... I'm so happy . What it is ? naa just treat my le'family a dinner . My first salary. I ma so proud . Now for second wishlist ..... Just wait yeah coming soon ........... love the combination peach and red .  phts & edit by myself “The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.”  ―  Eleanor Roosevelt

phts & edit by myself  Someone once asked me, whether I am an anti-to guy? . For them, I am different from the  other girls. Haha . It's kind of weird  question actually. Do I looks like lesbian ?  Agaga..  For me,  I was happy with the people around me,just enough and yes I been disappointed in a relationship and have a very rough time to recover it, that's why I'm afraid to fall in love again.  After a year , I be single and a year I'm try to  hide and blocking my feeling to  fall in love again . But the more I run the more I am close. Allowing a stranger present in my life and want to know more than a friend,  for me is hard to do, I want to accept him but at the same time the door remains closed my heart to accept anyone.  Will you willing to wait until I am ready ?  '' Ya Allah jika dia benar untuk ku dekatkan lah hatinya dengan hati ku , jika dia bukan milikku damaikan lah hati ku deng...

phts&edit by myself  Dear June please be lucky for me . May ? I just don't know . I've  get a job but.. now it's bring me so stressful down to earth I've  met a new friends but ... now they must go somewhere else I've new crush but .. he also go someplace He met me but... it's bring to a huge fight I've a date but ...... --------------------- It's long pause there . I just don't know what to said . Everything went well at first but then everything went wrong . And wrong and always wrong . Yeah like they said someday we'll be on top and someday we'll down beneath into the layers of the earth into how though I'm not sure. But I never felt that I would always be on top always below and below and below.. But With patience and sincerity..I  keep believing on my fate that one day, though not yesterday .. today or tomorrow .. but I still believe that one day my future is bright. I'll make it . ...