LITTLE D

Assalamualikum and Hello.  So today, I want to share my ‘short vacation’ to 4 states  and one country in a week for my semester break for this semester break. I hope you guys enjoy and may help you in planning the trip based on this entry whoever want to plan to go to Singapore which is USS (Universal Studio Singapore) and Malacca. I try my best to explain it more details. Here we go--- My travel partner for this semester break is my cousin who just finished her study in India as a Doctor (wuuuu~~~). So we plan to travel to Singapore which is only focused on USS. USS is been my dream since I was 13 years old and everyone dreams too right? And Malacca, which is in Malaysia because she (my cousins) never been there and the last time I went Malacca when I was standard six which is a school trip, so I say ‘ yeah why not?’  So the journey began. Trip to Singapore. So for the trip to USS we use a travel package by @pakejpelanconganmurah you guys can search...

I don't know why lately I feels     low-esteem with myself  . I  just don't know .  Almost everyday I asked my mom ,  ' why I am so hideous ?'  Then my mom will said ' God already created like that , you should be grateful , what if you don't have nose ?'  A long pause there ----- When some people said 'hey , you already beautiful la , or  some may said 'hey . you cute what  and  I was thinking it was a lie  totally a liars I don't know why I always reflect my self some  big and ugly monster sometimes  Yeah to describe how  hideous  I am Then ,  when I am struggle with my own conflict  I don't realize the real me its getting faded  I mean  How to content me with others Until today when my friend said 'why you being so silent ? it makes me feel awkward?' Is that what people see? What people feels ? About me  ...

I like being independent Not so much of an investment No one to tell me what to do I like being by myself Don’t gotta entertain anybody else No one to answer to But sometimes, I just want somebody to hold Someone to give me their jacket when its cold Got that young love even when we’re old Yeah sometimes, I want someone to grab my hand Pick me up, pull me close, be my man I will love you till the end So if you’re out there I swear to be good to you But I’m done lookin’, for my future someone Cause when the time is right You’ll be here, but for now Dear no one, this is your love song I don’t really like big crowds I tend to shut people out I like my space, yeah But I’d love to have a soul mate God will give him to me someday & I know it’ll be worth the wait So if you’re out there I swear to be good to you But I’m done lookin’, for my future someone Cause when the time is right You’ll be here, but for now Dear no one, this is your love song But sometimes, I just want some...

Mungkin ramai akan cakap aku bodoh atau seumpamanya . Mungkin itu semua benar . Sungguh . Tapi aku takut .  Benarlah kata bonda semakin aku mintak jauh semakin ia menghampiri . Aku bukan menolak tapi mengelak Sungguh aku tidak layak , benar . Telah banyak aku melakukan dosa mahupun silap. Jika dosa itu berbau , akulah yang berbau paling busuk . Mungkin 1000 jauh batunya masih terhidu , atau lebih jauh lagi . Aku pernah terbaca di dalam al-quran . Ayatnya berbunyi lebih kurang (aku buat ayat sendiri) ''Kalau kau buat salah mintak ampun pada Allah , jika kau buat salah lagi mintak ampun pada Allah dan jika kau mengulangi lagi mintak ampun pada Allah , sesungguhnya Allah maha pengampun '' Hati aku sentap , sudah berjuta kali aku membuat kesilapan dan kesalahan yang sama namun Allah masih menerima . Aku pernah berjanji dengan diri aku sendiri namun aku tetap melakukan . Betapa hinanya aku . Mungkin luaran atau mata kasar orang melihat aku baik...

Final exams just around the corner as always as a student feelings terrified fear of exams . So do I feel a little bit worried , I think I should because  lately I've been skip many class ah I am so lazy to wake up early in morning well actually I want to wake up but I always overshoot hihi , so lazy to chaos then I continue  to sleep.  I do know why I lose my sense to study , I miss me when I was in matriculation 'boleh tahan rajin ' maybe is been too long I leave it so it needs some time to get back  that sense . After I perform my Isya' , I don't know I feels very sad it just suddenly . I imagined past stories, I imagined my life story . Thought about death . Then I remember this . Maybe this is my luck . I am not good muslimah yeah .  Afiqah : weh semalam dinner number bertuah hang dapat apa ? Me : Cer teka ? Afiqah : Macam buku je . Me: Tak ah Al-Quran  Afiqah : Seriously? Woaa hang ta de rasa apa ke Me : Aku ada...

Sometimes I can't understand what or who I am . Lately 'we' figure out something well as you know next year I will become 20 years old , what tween-ty ahh no more 'belas-belas' is already 'puluh-puluh ' . Sound old dude . It's remind me of my childhood when I was a child I always woke up in morning said ' Kan best besar boleh beli ini tu lagi-lagi barbie perhh nak full set ' - now I know how demand I was . Now , I woke up ' Kan best kecik asyik  main je ' - now I know how being adult . Well life must go on right. The only thing bothering us everyday yeah everyday is about  ' jodoh ' , well 4 of us still single . Actually I don't mind be single .  Freedom  . I do happy with my life  no boys cool beb . But you can't  run thinking about future I mean a guy will lead you , own a family , your child running around the baby crying ahh to be a wife and a mother . Gotta it ? Jodoh itu rahsia Allah- yeah I know that but w...

I do have a great time with them . This is 'our' first time run out from our prison to visit other place , well farthest near the town, see  just holed up in the  Sintok woods . How sad . So yesterday we went to Kuala Perlis with the tallest akk fakirah as the driver and the tourist guide akk ida . Here we go . First destination . Kuala Perlis .  Seriously this thing ' sotong goreng tepung ' superbb . Sedap sangat , ini pun order untuk dua orang see banyak sangat . I do love this picture , model - akk ida . Actually akk ida want to invite us to see the sunset, but the weather is  covered by mist. But is okay we do feel very fun to eat . Yummy . So pretty . Then we perform our Magrib at 'masjid terapung ' . Subahan' allah , I do admire this masjid . By the way ignore my face yeah . When the wind blow to the face I feels I can fly waaahh . I do love zephyr . I wish I can go there again its so beautiful . Next location ,...

Orang kata : Kalau nak tahu jodoh Sebelum tidur  Kena tepuk bantal 3x Orang kata: Kena niat  Allah bagi petunjuk Orang kata: Dalam mimpi tu  Allah bagi petunjuk  Tapi tak nampak muka Orang kata: Nampak belakang (pun boleh la ) Orang kata: Aku pun dengar Orang kata: Aku suka buat Aku pun cuba(dahla aku jenis susah dapat mimpi , gelap je) Malam tu aku dapat mimpi Aku mimpi, Yang Aku Dah Dapat  Ipad mini 2 Hempeh (-_-') Jauh tersasar mimpi tu  Tu lah Orang kata: Aku ikot je.

Have you ever feel you want to be him/ her . I mean  want to be in him/her shoes .  Looks so perfect whatever you want you will get with just finger picking .  Then , when boys/girls passing by looking at you just a first glance and not making the second thought .  Then , no worries any quiz or exam because you actually incredible intelligent .  Have you? Same goes me .  I don't know why suddenly I write it , maybe I motivate myself .  But , this is human nature .  Actually without we  thought that up people who want to be like us . They see us .  Yeah human cycle . We never feels satisfied with our self . Life like a shoes   Looks pretty / smart outside  Try you to wear it Big or Small Try to walk it Loose or  Hurt Then you will know This is my life and Why I Am I  We have different size and different test . God has given us the exact size and fit for us. Our job is to wea...

Finally it's mid-sem break but seriously is not feels like a mid-sem it feels a mid-sem assignment . I had thought to take a break from studying but again after answering statistic paper like a bullshit . Yeah I just don't want to talk about that,  because of  this paper I've skip my statistics class  , yeah lazy to get off from the bed in early that morning then seeing your lecturer face like your seeing  the  answer sheets will get zero . Maybe I am a person so easily get depresses , maybe perhaps ? I dunno . Sometimes we not depress on the work we should done but, the person who we should face it right? Yeah , I know not everyone can follow our pace and not all of us can follow he/her pace. We are born with differences and differences of character. Some said  that the differences can be close friends and some said friend can be triggered when there is a similarity. Gota it? I personally do not know whether I am guilty or not but  if ...

Time passes so quickly. It's time I returned to sintokoyo, tomorrow morning. Goodbye home Yesterday , I do have a really great time with my roommate and my course  mate . I wish Farah can join us  it will be more fun .So yesterday we gathered at KL central. I'm from Putrajaya while those in KL. This is the first time we went out together in the KL area and we do have fun time . Let's hang out again someday . Okay , let me tell a bit about them, know where you deign to make future wife? okay jokes. This akak Yas, why akak ? her  age  is 20, but she does look like 20 right ? Maybe she is too small , yeah I am fat .  STPM leavers in  accountants course . Fantastic. Ever she  given a bid to continue her studies in accountants at Australia  but she rejected the offer because delayed until after she was in sintokoyo. Maybe in sintokoyo is akak sustenance.I am happy to get to know you. She was also one of the reasons we like to bully her, becaus...

I thank God this was the first time back to Putrajaya after nearly 6 weeks in Sintok, only God knows the joy of coming home to me, feels like being in heaven. You know how right at home, all things well feel comfortable. So, how Sintok. Okay la life was not the same at the University like first life in  matriculation . Different circumstances, different people different attitude but even this kind of people I do not care what they say as long as what I do it right and do not harass or inconvenience people for me that's enough.I'm not the kind of people who want to figure out why it did not like me or why people look at me preoccupied. This is me, then keep your mouth shut if you don't know and  stopped evaluate. I just pray that Allah  may further simplify my upcoming plan , and the introduction of friendships here that I just remain standing until the end. It's fun when you get to know some  friend who 'sama kepala ' and stayed in same state but it als...

Life is sometimes unpredictable. I do not know why lately I'm too depressed with myself. My fault? Maybe I'm too far away from Allah may this part of the test. Allah may have planned the way my life better. Allah is the  first used for guided me. When I tell my life story to them, they said I was lucky meditating, when I'm alone and reflect upon myself, do I able to maintain this guidance? Too many trials, I almost collapsed. But there is a faith in my heart I will continue to get up and fight, it is not easy to defend something simple collapsing. Let them insult, let them look down. leave. God is all-knowing what is implied. Be patient, O hearts that one day success will come with full meaning.

Kadang-kadang aku tak paham dengan sikap seseorang itu . Kalau nak berkawan mesti tengok family background dia whether from rich family or not . Kalau tak kaya mesti melihat paras rupa cantik ke ta ? . Mungkin ini satu lumrah , Tapi trend kat sini tak macam ni but still they will seeking on something , apa? in courses . Aku tak paham kenapa dorang kalau nak bergaul mesti tengok kepada course seseorang tu  , well yeah not all of them but some , because of this some people mencacatkan pandangan dan pemikiran seseorang kepada seseorang . Gotta it ?  Course kami tak se'gah' nama bangunan kami even our courses in international school but people still look us down , kalau kami sebut apa nama course kami, mereka akan mempamerkan riaksi muka 'ouh course tu je ?' kadang-kadang aku rase macam nak tumbuk terajang je . Nasib aku perempuan . Nasib berbaju kurung . Nasib bertudung . Kalau ta memang aku dah ganyang kau kat situ .  Pernah juga seseorang dari course account...

Perhaps here the fate I know who I am. I never thought that I would be this level. I had hoped to have a life like everyone else or be in their place. They are full of life and  full of happiness. It's time I stop complaining, I have to move forward. Dare I gotta move. I'm very grateful for what I have experienced. I never thought I would spend the night in the forest. I never thought I can fight with them I never thought  I'm brave to fight their challenges. I did not expect. And I'm proud of myself . Farah buat cerita seram lak time ni  Tengah makan mala dekat dewan  terbuka then  Farah : Apa didy?  Me: Apa? Farah : Didy ajak lepas makan ni duduk dalam khemah erk? Me: Ha mana ade Farah : ouh okay , orang belakang kot . Continue her meal  I am looking at Yas and Yas looking at me . Staring each other without knowing the answer .  “Stop comparing where you’re at with where everyone else is. It doesn...