LITTLE D

is not easy,  for me to trust people,  is not easy,  painful to swallow me alive,  chelate and brackish felt for many years,  is not easy,  to restore me back into myself,  feel what it is sweet after all this time , is not easy,  I want to forget the past,  dark story of me,. dear you , is not that simple,  but you simply deny  my trust towards you .   I was silent for a moment.  I was disappointed,  no words can,  reflect my frustrations on you  because you're not what I thought,  I accept your apology says,  but this feeling  began to wilting and dying , began to feel empty,  still hurts and pain.  you simply pull down,  the trust wall I started to build . sincerely, d.y.m.j  

sometimes I hope ,  word and image,  from my mind,  go out and play in space,  let other people see,  see and understand,  not only see,  on a pair of my eyes,  that showing the light of joy,  you have been cheated,  with a pair of eyes. sometimes I wish , my body is made of a transparent material,  so can you see,  what exactly fill my heart,  what is implied in my heart,  my heart is sick,  sad and dark,  too scared and too lonely,  but you only see,  I smile happily,  you have been cheated,  with a fake smile. sometimes I hope ,  I was invisible,  no one knows about my existence,  my presence,  and no one knew me,  but you see me,  see my body  in a sea of ​​people,  crowded and noisy,  while myself,  feeling lonely,  very lonely,  extremely lonely...

So , hello there is been a while and first I want to thanked to my followers in feedspot for following my blog. I quite shocked about it because I don't have this feedspot account and when I checked based on my page viewers , my top view from feedspot second from google and third from my twitter account , well I already have followers on feedspot it's feel great and thank you, this makes me excited to write more even  I was not so great in the field of writing . Ouh yeah , is been long time I'm not write poem right ? Now the holiday season, so the brain does not work very properly but I'll write it again. Today I'm gonna shared something worth maybe , especially for single women or girl . You should be happy ,  why you need to grieve for a man, so much more to you to explore and learn. Look at the world, the world is waiting for you to visit, you just need to find and keep looking to enjoy the beauty of the world. I do not mean that man is not important, i...

(skip introduction I'm suck )  Okay , what I've noticed a past few days . Pasal bertudung dengan tak , yeah it may sound cliche sampai bila-bila . Bila ada orang buat perangai yang tak senonoh dan dia pakai tudung ( ini sebagai contoh ) orang akan bash ' at least dia bertudung ' ' kau ingat orang pakai tudung tu baik sangat ke ?' pernah dengarkan alasan ney tak pernah lapuk .  Aku bukan nak tekan kan atau nak menangkan mana-mana pihak , it just my humble opinions . So here some simple example .  (Story time) Budak A dengan budak B ada exam penting dekat dewan yang memang menetukan hidup mati dorang lah . Kalau lulus menjamin masa depan dorang , kalau fail for sure repeat la kn . So kalau nak masuk pintu dewan tu peraturan dia kena berpakaian kemas dan formal . Ada pengawas jaga dekat depan pintu tu .  Budak A ney pakai pakaian formal , kemas yang amat tapi ilmu dekat kepala kurang , ye la sebab makan tido je kerja buku buat alas bantal . Heb...

Kita couple untuk apa ? suka -suka menghabiskan masa chat sana chat sini , nak pergi mana ? Seolah-olah kita macam hamster pusing sana tak sampai kemana . Kita bila sampai umur dah dewasa dah ada agama , dah ada ekonomi sikit mesti meneruskan perjalanan hidup kita sebab , bila kita umur 25 kita dah matang . Masa tu mesti kahwin dah ,masa tu . Tapi kalau kita duk couple tidak ada perkhawinan sia-sia , sabab tu saya beritahu ' kalau orang mula kenal kita (bagi wanita ) orang lelaki kenal kita dalam masa sebulan dia tak sebut langsung pun 'oh saya nak kahwin dengan awak ' 'saya nak jumpa keluarga'. Stop . Rugi masa .Habiskan bill . Habiskan prepaid . Habiskan masa sahaja . Ingat mesti kita couple mesti ke arah perkhawinan maka kita bersiap bersama-sama betulkan akidah tentukan ibadah solat al-fatiha tu biar betul akhlak tu biar lemah -lembut lagi .Akidah Ibadah .Amal tak cukup jangan sibuk nak couple . Sebab kita takut tengah couple kalau tak jaga hijab buat benda h...

Have you ever felt down with yourself , well for me almost all the time . Most girl will talk about beauty of someone that they see on social media especially on Instagram right ?. So do I , then you will stalk her profile stalk and stalk and sigh 'how pretty she is' ' how lucky she is ' then you felt down with yourself . We are in same boat girl , so do I .  Majority they will talk about beauty , then relationship goal or whatsoever . Most girl will more stalk girls instagram ,  so do boys right ? That's why some people made ' pretty malay girl ' account  ' pretty  bla bla bla' then the caption said no boys allowed  but still  HAVE boys follow  that account and why that account is not on private ? . In my opinion some of this 'pretty bla bla ' account the account holders is a guy .  I just don't get it ,how this account can exist. I'm not saying all the guy bad so do I'm a good person . Short advice  for the girls ...

We almost end of Ramadhan , then we will meet Shawwal . It's kindda sad that  Ramadhan almost leave us , I hope we can meet next holy month again for next year .  So the journey of Ramadhan for this year ,*pause for sec .  Frankly talk  I am (not very ) satisfied with what I have done during the fasting month for this year compare to the last year  . Fasting month is about  we are trying to recognize our true self and control our  passions . What have I discovered about myself for almost a month  was (not very ) impressive, I just don't know .  I could not state the reasons why . It's pretty sad actually . But .. yeah .  I might have realized what was less about me and what  need to change . Perhaps there is still have a space for me to change and to be a better and better person . I hope this Shawwal will give a new breath to start new trail . Yeah . Happy Eid Mubarak guys .