LITTLE D

Assalamualaikum and hello dear readers, Hi is been long time I didn’t post anything. Here’s come a carrier life. To be honest, I just can’t believe I am already on carrier journey. Is not what I do expect. Yes, high expectations do kill you so don’t expect too much yeah. But at the same time, I am enjoying my life because they will be something new I have learnt not just in my working things but also myself. You know, sometimes, if feels like I just discover myself    what I love what I hate, is so interesting. Yeah, I know it does sound pretty weird but yeah.   It feels like you are trying to know yourself more. I know I didn’t deserve to write this thing, but it’s okay, this is my opinions. So the topic, I would like to write is ‘is okay to quit your job’ wuuuuuu. I know is sound cliché and I only quit just one job I know, I know, but I still want to write it. To be honest, I am so grateful what I own now. Is not a perfect job I have dream. Working hours 9...

Mungkin ramai akan cakap aku bodoh atau seumpamanya . Mungkin itu semua benar . Sungguh . Tapi aku takut .  Benarlah kata bonda semakin aku mintak jauh semakin ia menghampiri . Aku bukan menolak tapi mengelak Sungguh aku tidak layak , benar . Telah banyak aku melakukan dosa mahupun silap. Jika dosa itu berbau , akulah yang berbau paling busuk . Mungkin 1000 jauh batunya masih terhidu , atau lebih jauh lagi . Aku pernah terbaca di dalam al-quran . Ayatnya berbunyi lebih kurang (aku buat ayat sendiri) ''Kalau kau buat salah mintak ampun pada Allah , jika kau buat salah lagi mintak ampun pada Allah dan jika kau mengulangi lagi mintak ampun pada Allah , sesungguhnya Allah maha pengampun '' Hati aku sentap , sudah berjuta kali aku membuat kesilapan dan kesalahan yang sama namun Allah masih menerima . Aku pernah berjanji dengan diri aku sendiri namun aku tetap melakukan . Betapa hinanya aku . Mungkin luaran atau mata kasar orang melihat aku baik...

Final exams just around the corner as always as a student feelings terrified fear of exams . So do I feel a little bit worried , I think I should because  lately I've been skip many class ah I am so lazy to wake up early in morning well actually I want to wake up but I always overshoot hihi , so lazy to chaos then I continue  to sleep.  I do know why I lose my sense to study , I miss me when I was in matriculation 'boleh tahan rajin ' maybe is been too long I leave it so it needs some time to get back  that sense . After I perform my Isya' , I don't know I feels very sad it just suddenly . I imagined past stories, I imagined my life story . Thought about death . Then I remember this . Maybe this is my luck . I am not good muslimah yeah .  Afiqah : weh semalam dinner number bertuah hang dapat apa ? Me : Cer teka ? Afiqah : Macam buku je . Me: Tak ah Al-Quran  Afiqah : Seriously? Woaa hang ta de rasa apa ke Me : Aku ada...

Sometimes I can't understand what or who I am . Lately 'we' figure out something well as you know next year I will become 20 years old , what tween-ty ahh no more 'belas-belas' is already 'puluh-puluh ' . Sound old dude . It's remind me of my childhood when I was a child I always woke up in morning said ' Kan best besar boleh beli ini tu lagi-lagi barbie perhh nak full set ' - now I know how demand I was . Now , I woke up ' Kan best kecik asyik  main je ' - now I know how being adult . Well life must go on right. The only thing bothering us everyday yeah everyday is about  ' jodoh ' , well 4 of us still single . Actually I don't mind be single .  Freedom  . I do happy with my life  no boys cool beb . But you can't  run thinking about future I mean a guy will lead you , own a family , your child running around the baby crying ahh to be a wife and a mother . Gotta it ? Jodoh itu rahsia Allah- yeah I know that but w...

Orang kata : Kalau nak tahu jodoh Sebelum tidur  Kena tepuk bantal 3x Orang kata: Kena niat  Allah bagi petunjuk Orang kata: Dalam mimpi tu  Allah bagi petunjuk  Tapi tak nampak muka Orang kata: Nampak belakang (pun boleh la ) Orang kata: Aku pun dengar Orang kata: Aku suka buat Aku pun cuba(dahla aku jenis susah dapat mimpi , gelap je) Malam tu aku dapat mimpi Aku mimpi, Yang Aku Dah Dapat  Ipad mini 2 Hempeh (-_-') Jauh tersasar mimpi tu  Tu lah Orang kata: Aku ikot je.

Is already 3 a.m  I don't know what to do My eyes  Still fresh So . . . . . . . . . . I stalk my old facebook account then I scroll scroll scroll every people post at my timeline  and scroll scroll scroll - - - - - - - as you do now *I know stupid right hihi but why you keeping do it by the way then scroll scroll - - - - - I  saw  it and my eyes keep reading my hand keep  scrolling  - - - - - June 29, 2011  6:25 pm  only god knows how much i love you. ♥ :) 9 . 11 pm What I feel for you is more than words can say, I'll love you forever each and everyday. ♥ ;) June 30 , 2011 9.35 pm you mean the world to me :) 9. 37 pm A day without you is like the world without sunshine. Iloveyou ! :) 9. 59 pm I love you ♥ ;) July 7 ,2011  10. 26pm I love you ♥ hihi ;) July 16 , 2011...

Time passes so quickly. It's time I returned to sintokoyo, tomorrow morning. Goodbye home Yesterday , I do have a really great time with my roommate and my course  mate . I wish Farah can join us  it will be more fun .So yesterday we gathered at KL central. I'm from Putrajaya while those in KL. This is the first time we went out together in the KL area and we do have fun time . Let's hang out again someday . Okay , let me tell a bit about them, know where you deign to make future wife? okay jokes. This akak Yas, why akak ? her  age  is 20, but she does look like 20 right ? Maybe she is too small , yeah I am fat .  STPM leavers in  accountants course . Fantastic. Ever she  given a bid to continue her studies in accountants at Australia  but she rejected the offer because delayed until after she was in sintokoyo. Maybe in sintokoyo is akak sustenance.I am happy to get to know you. She was also one of the reasons we like to bully her, becaus...

Life is sometimes unpredictable. I do not know why lately I'm too depressed with myself. My fault? Maybe I'm too far away from Allah may this part of the test. Allah may have planned the way my life better. Allah is the  first used for guided me. When I tell my life story to them, they said I was lucky meditating, when I'm alone and reflect upon myself, do I able to maintain this guidance? Too many trials, I almost collapsed. But there is a faith in my heart I will continue to get up and fight, it is not easy to defend something simple collapsing. Let them insult, let them look down. leave. God is all-knowing what is implied. Be patient, O hearts that one day success will come with full meaning.

phts & edit  by myself Alhamdulilah I'm safely arrived my destination this evening , yeah it was  long journey so do my heart  began to move away . May Allah ease me  . Bismillahirrahmanirrahim Life , it will pass us by so fast . But really , it's up to us how far our journey is and when we finally hop off . And in those moments before leaving, you must wonder , was my journey worth it in the end? . And the answer should be 'yes' . -mellifuous Said goodbye , turned around and you were gone,gone,gone . Faded into the setting  sun , slipped away. But I won't cry cause I know , I'll never be lonely .For you are the stars to me , you are the light I follow . In a place far away where the water meets the  sky The thought makes me smile Sometimes I feel my heart is breaking , But I stay strong and I hold on cause I know I'll see you again and this is not where it end , See you again

Who knows it just a doa'  '' Ya Allah betulkan kau pandang aku lagi , Ya Allah betulkah kau sayang aku , Ya Allah jika benar tolong la hamba-mu ini , aku betul-betul nak berubah tapi aku tak tahu macam mana nak mulakan , Amin'' Who knows it just a first step with a heavy heart  'Selamat Datang ke Matrikulasi Pulau Pinang '  Who knows it just a short conversation  Me : Ehh kita satu practicum kan?  Maziah : Ha'a Me: Jom la pergi class sesame, meh la masuk bilik kita Maziah : ouh okay Me : Name sapa erk? lupa laa.. Maziah : Maziah . Who knows it just a discussion group  Afiqah : Nak number boleh , senang nak contact nanti . Me : Alaa , tak ingat la number , jap erk . Name?  Afiqah : Afiqah  Who knows it just sitting position side by side Who knows we become closer and closer  Who knows it gonna be a changes  Me : Wei kau perasan tak ? hewhew Maziah : Perasan Me : Apa-apa ? hehe...

Do you know the real mean  of ' money' ? Do you know the real mean of 'love' ? Do you know the real mean  of 'family' ? I don't know what those thing real mean . What I know, those three words that when combined give a deep meaning . When you have MONEY they will LOVE you and we as a FAMILY .  I'm tired face of all this drama for 8 years . Maybe they see we  happy, maybe they see we smile, maybe they saw we laugh but they do not see the sense of frustration, tears and hatred.  Not everyone has a happy family, what use money  but not happy, what is the point if the family is not together and hated each other. what is its purpose? Does escape from all this gives them satisfaction?  I do not know when the 'big day' comes.

Alhamdulilah , I had three months to gain work experience, true. Working is  more difficult than learning. If I am given a choice, learning is an option for me. I have gathered a lot of experience, getting to know people, know the environment and responsibility. So this is my journey for my first experience working 'part-time'. The experience began in a bookstore (prefer to be untold) , at first I thought, maybe working in bookstore is not so bad, but the thought  dampened when I was working there, worse, tired and sadistic. There are divided into their department , but I was sooooo unlucky to get the magazine department . Honestly I'm not very interested in the magazine, the day I was interviewed , I may be placed as cashier but this may be my soul mate. At that time I worked in the care of my magazine  boss. But the knowledge that could be passed to me just 2 weeks. I feel myself great because I can handle a difficult  department. (wahaha)...

I don't know whether this feeling was right or wrong but I think I should let go and keep moving forward . I'm getting bored with you, Bored with all our conversation , Bored with your drama, Bored with everything. Maybe having a crush feeling with you  was enough for me , but loving you , it was wrong and totally wrong and frankly I never fall in love with you. You're my crush since second semester  we met at cafe . I was there you was there .We looking each other and smiling each other . Still remember you staring at me then I'm getting shy hiding behind my friend back  from meeting your eyes. Then.. Since we often bumped several times, looked at each other and smile, we always find a reason and a way to meet. And I also know you already have your partner even you never told it . I'm okay with it.. because you only my crush, love the way your smile, love the way your style , love the way you are . It's not wrong having crush on...

Second semester it just great, we still close each other like always, hang out, do some crazy stuff , haunting our crush again and again  . I should admit it someday I will miss my life and my friends in matriculation , yeah is really hard to met them, we from different country , some from Kedah, Peneng, Pahang , Kelantan . It's impossible  to meet again .  Since lately, too many trials happen to me, sometimes I do not know whether I'm strong  enough to face it.This is beyond my expectations  but I still gave strength to the spirit and feel that this is a test from Allah Almighty . Allah  gives trials to people who can handle it. Many  people are facing trials, massive from me, but why they can handle it with a smile, laughter, I must  be strong. One day the truth will emerge.