LITTLE D

Currently  I 'm so busy with assignments .  Too many tasks that I need to finish it but there is also my fault ,  kinda person who loves to do 'last minute' work , so far okay lah but there is also have some lecturer who hard to predict  . Today we are asked to make a given topic, the next  day we were asked to change the topic. I'm tired to deal with this kind of man , if I can  I just want to  punch his face. Kedebush . I'm already starting to miss to write poetry, but lack of time. I need sem break! .  Pray for me and Insyallah  I will write a poem back. Good luck in life. Short message  from me : do not think too much about what people say. Try to learn to be grateful for what you have and people who faithfully with you (ie family and friends) and you're still capable and still alive. Try to learn easy to smile to some strangers (not flirting way OK) .Try to love yourself, when you love yourself , believe  me ...

Kadang-kadang aku tak paham dengan sikap seseorang itu . Kalau nak berkawan mesti tengok family background dia whether from rich family or not . Kalau tak kaya mesti melihat paras rupa cantik ke ta ? . Mungkin ini satu lumrah , Tapi trend kat sini tak macam ni but still they will seeking on something , apa? in courses . Aku tak paham kenapa dorang kalau nak bergaul mesti tengok kepada course seseorang tu  , well yeah not all of them but some , because of this some people mencacatkan pandangan dan pemikiran seseorang kepada seseorang . Gotta it ?  Course kami tak se'gah' nama bangunan kami even our courses in international school but people still look us down , kalau kami sebut apa nama course kami, mereka akan mempamerkan riaksi muka 'ouh course tu je ?' kadang-kadang aku rase macam nak tumbuk terajang je . Nasib aku perempuan . Nasib berbaju kurung . Nasib bertudung . Kalau ta memang aku dah ganyang kau kat situ .  Pernah juga seseorang dari course account...

Perhaps here the fate I know who I am. I never thought that I would be this level. I had hoped to have a life like everyone else or be in their place. They are full of life and  full of happiness. It's time I stop complaining, I have to move forward. Dare I gotta move. I'm very grateful for what I have experienced. I never thought I would spend the night in the forest. I never thought I can fight with them I never thought  I'm brave to fight their challenges. I did not expect. And I'm proud of myself . Farah buat cerita seram lak time ni  Tengah makan mala dekat dewan  terbuka then  Farah : Apa didy?  Me: Apa? Farah : Didy ajak lepas makan ni duduk dalam khemah erk? Me: Ha mana ade Farah : ouh okay , orang belakang kot . Continue her meal  I am looking at Yas and Yas looking at me . Staring each other without knowing the answer .  “Stop comparing where you’re at with where everyone else is. It doesn...

Do you know the real mean  of ' money' ? Do you know the real mean of 'love' ? Do you know the real mean  of 'family' ? I don't know what those thing real mean . What I know, those three words that when combined give a deep meaning . When you have MONEY they will LOVE you and we as a FAMILY .  I'm tired face of all this drama for 8 years . Maybe they see we  happy, maybe they see we smile, maybe they saw we laugh but they do not see the sense of frustration, tears and hatred.  Not everyone has a happy family, what use money  but not happy, what is the point if the family is not together and hated each other. what is its purpose? Does escape from all this gives them satisfaction?  I do not know when the 'big day' comes.

Alhamdulilah , I had three months to gain work experience, true. Working is  more difficult than learning. If I am given a choice, learning is an option for me. I have gathered a lot of experience, getting to know people, know the environment and responsibility. So this is my journey for my first experience working 'part-time'. The experience began in a bookstore (prefer to be untold) , at first I thought, maybe working in bookstore is not so bad, but the thought  dampened when I was working there, worse, tired and sadistic. There are divided into their department , but I was sooooo unlucky to get the magazine department . Honestly I'm not very interested in the magazine, the day I was interviewed , I may be placed as cashier but this may be my soul mate. At that time I worked in the care of my magazine  boss. But the knowledge that could be passed to me just 2 weeks. I feel myself great because I can handle a difficult  department. (wahaha)...

Some people may say why you so slow... but they didn't know what you're great in. Some people may say why you looks so horrible .... but they didn't know your inner beauty is . Some people may say why you always make trouble to them ... but they do not realize that you had lightened their burden. Some people may say why you so arrogant ... but they didn't know  that you are a good person. Some people may say you're out from their standard ... but they didn't realize their are out of standard to be with you . and etc.. Why we always wasting  our time to figure out what they will , might , could be said. Why we always wasting our day to looks perfect while we already  know no body is perfect . And why we always think what 'they said' , those people will say , those people will judge . And why we should scarified our happiness our comfortable because sake of them . Just be yourself . Don't wasting your time , day , minute and second ...