LITTLE D

Assalamualaikum and peace upon to you, Hi, how’s everything? There is so much I want to write but I don’t know how to begin. How to put all the thought in my head to the words to the qwertyuiop or you called it a keyboard. It is quite hard to summarize one whole year just in a page right but I will try. I don’t know why I still poured all my written here, maybe blog is being something so special for me. When I write I feel I has poured all my feelings thru writing well I love writing. I feel it is part of art which is it started with alphabets into words, then into feelings do you get it? No right? Okay, enough with this crap. Oh man I miss writing so bad finally my fingers are dancing on the keyboard. Bismillah here we go~ I cannot lie this year, especially 2020 has been a really surprising year for all. You never thought right what 2020 will serve you until this end but one thing for sure. Pat your back because you did it you go thru so well. Congrats! So my early year starts...

Assalamualaikum and peace upon to you, Thank you for the flowers and chocolates              First and foremost, I am so thankful and grateful to Allah Almighty, who gave me an opportunity to continue my study to degree level and also graduate on time. I am so beyond happy and kind of sad, I do miss me being as a student and 4 years roller coaster journey in my University. Dear reader, this gonna be a long appreciation story and some introduction of my journey so yeah. On the 19th of November 2017, I am officially graduated as ‘Bachelor of Tourism Management with (Hons)’which means I am officially ending up me as a degree student. The feelings are so mixed up, it’s hard to explain in words, but I know you guys will understand right.              Studying in Tourism is not my choice neither both my parents. Frankly talking, I never applied in UPU for tourism course and I never think that I would end up...

Assalamualikum and Hello.  So today, I want to share my ‘short vacation’ to 4 states  and one country in a week for my semester break for this semester break. I hope you guys enjoy and may help you in planning the trip based on this entry whoever want to plan to go to Singapore which is USS (Universal Studio Singapore) and Malacca. I try my best to explain it more details. Here we go--- My travel partner for this semester break is my cousin who just finished her study in India as a Doctor (wuuuu~~~). So we plan to travel to Singapore which is only focused on USS. USS is been my dream since I was 13 years old and everyone dreams too right? And Malacca, which is in Malaysia because she (my cousins) never been there and the last time I went Malacca when I was standard six which is a school trip, so I say ‘ yeah why not?’  So the journey began. Trip to Singapore. So for the trip to USS we use a travel package by @pakejpelanconganmurah you guys can search...

I like being independent Not so much of an investment No one to tell me what to do I like being by myself Don’t gotta entertain anybody else No one to answer to But sometimes, I just want somebody to hold Someone to give me their jacket when its cold Got that young love even when we’re old Yeah sometimes, I want someone to grab my hand Pick me up, pull me close, be my man I will love you till the end So if you’re out there I swear to be good to you But I’m done lookin’, for my future someone Cause when the time is right You’ll be here, but for now Dear no one, this is your love song I don’t really like big crowds I tend to shut people out I like my space, yeah But I’d love to have a soul mate God will give him to me someday & I know it’ll be worth the wait So if you’re out there I swear to be good to you But I’m done lookin’, for my future someone Cause when the time is right You’ll be here, but for now Dear no one, this is your love song But sometimes, I just want some...

13 January 2014  It is so painful waiting for the day that will come,  finally  the day arrived . I am so fucking excited Alhamdulilah . It is hurt to be the last person close the University gate , I told you it is a stressful  hearing some people pull their luggage here and there while you are STILL study in a room  loaded of books and papers .  At one stage I pray that he/she dislodged the tire luggage. Biar bawak bagasi tu peluk .Memekak je. Sorry if my prayer fulfilled. So goodbye first sem and 2013 . I do have a great year in 2013 may 2014 will be the greatest . Checklist : #1 . Goodbye berok  and monkey . I am back . # 2 . Bonda kept her promise , wuhaha '' ketam goreng '' . Thanks bonda you are the best mother on this earth .  #3 .  Hug and kiss with my girlfie  . Bahah love you eja gendut . Be pretty and stay pretty darl . Done for today . To be continue. p/s Selamat Menyambut Maulud N...

Sometimes I can't understand what or who I am . Lately 'we' figure out something well as you know next year I will become 20 years old , what tween-ty ahh no more 'belas-belas' is already 'puluh-puluh ' . Sound old dude . It's remind me of my childhood when I was a child I always woke up in morning said ' Kan best besar boleh beli ini tu lagi-lagi barbie perhh nak full set ' - now I know how demand I was . Now , I woke up ' Kan best kecik asyik  main je ' - now I know how being adult . Well life must go on right. The only thing bothering us everyday yeah everyday is about  ' jodoh ' , well 4 of us still single . Actually I don't mind be single .  Freedom  . I do happy with my life  no boys cool beb . But you can't  run thinking about future I mean a guy will lead you , own a family , your child running around the baby crying ahh to be a wife and a mother . Gotta it ? Jodoh itu rahsia Allah- yeah I know that but w...

I thank God this was the first time back to Putrajaya after nearly 6 weeks in Sintok, only God knows the joy of coming home to me, feels like being in heaven. You know how right at home, all things well feel comfortable. So, how Sintok. Okay la life was not the same at the University like first life in  matriculation . Different circumstances, different people different attitude but even this kind of people I do not care what they say as long as what I do it right and do not harass or inconvenience people for me that's enough.I'm not the kind of people who want to figure out why it did not like me or why people look at me preoccupied. This is me, then keep your mouth shut if you don't know and  stopped evaluate. I just pray that Allah  may further simplify my upcoming plan , and the introduction of friendships here that I just remain standing until the end. It's fun when you get to know some  friend who 'sama kepala ' and stayed in same state but it als...

Perhaps here the fate I know who I am. I never thought that I would be this level. I had hoped to have a life like everyone else or be in their place. They are full of life and  full of happiness. It's time I stop complaining, I have to move forward. Dare I gotta move. I'm very grateful for what I have experienced. I never thought I would spend the night in the forest. I never thought I can fight with them I never thought  I'm brave to fight their challenges. I did not expect. And I'm proud of myself . Farah buat cerita seram lak time ni  Tengah makan mala dekat dewan  terbuka then  Farah : Apa didy?  Me: Apa? Farah : Didy ajak lepas makan ni duduk dalam khemah erk? Me: Ha mana ade Farah : ouh okay , orang belakang kot . Continue her meal  I am looking at Yas and Yas looking at me . Staring each other without knowing the answer .  “Stop comparing where you’re at with where everyone else is. It doesn...

phts & edit  by myself Alhamdulilah I'm safely arrived my destination this evening , yeah it was  long journey so do my heart  began to move away . May Allah ease me  . Bismillahirrahmanirrahim Life , it will pass us by so fast . But really , it's up to us how far our journey is and when we finally hop off . And in those moments before leaving, you must wonder , was my journey worth it in the end? . And the answer should be 'yes' . -mellifuous Said goodbye , turned around and you were gone,gone,gone . Faded into the setting  sun , slipped away. But I won't cry cause I know , I'll never be lonely .For you are the stars to me , you are the light I follow . In a place far away where the water meets the  sky The thought makes me smile Sometimes I feel my heart is breaking , But I stay strong and I hold on cause I know I'll see you again and this is not where it end , See you again

Who knows it just a doa'  '' Ya Allah betulkan kau pandang aku lagi , Ya Allah betulkah kau sayang aku , Ya Allah jika benar tolong la hamba-mu ini , aku betul-betul nak berubah tapi aku tak tahu macam mana nak mulakan , Amin'' Who knows it just a first step with a heavy heart  'Selamat Datang ke Matrikulasi Pulau Pinang '  Who knows it just a short conversation  Me : Ehh kita satu practicum kan?  Maziah : Ha'a Me: Jom la pergi class sesame, meh la masuk bilik kita Maziah : ouh okay Me : Name sapa erk? lupa laa.. Maziah : Maziah . Who knows it just a discussion group  Afiqah : Nak number boleh , senang nak contact nanti . Me : Alaa , tak ingat la number , jap erk . Name?  Afiqah : Afiqah  Who knows it just sitting position side by side Who knows we become closer and closer  Who knows it gonna be a changes  Me : Wei kau perasan tak ? hewhew Maziah : Perasan Me : Apa-apa ? hehe...

Do you know the real mean  of ' money' ? Do you know the real mean of 'love' ? Do you know the real mean  of 'family' ? I don't know what those thing real mean . What I know, those three words that when combined give a deep meaning . When you have MONEY they will LOVE you and we as a FAMILY .  I'm tired face of all this drama for 8 years . Maybe they see we  happy, maybe they see we smile, maybe they saw we laugh but they do not see the sense of frustration, tears and hatred.  Not everyone has a happy family, what use money  but not happy, what is the point if the family is not together and hated each other. what is its purpose? Does escape from all this gives them satisfaction?  I do not know when the 'big day' comes.

Alhamdulilah , My first wishlist finally accomplish ..... I'm so happy . What it is ? naa just treat my le'family a dinner . My first salary. I ma so proud . Now for second wishlist ..... Just wait yeah coming soon ........... love the combination peach and red .  phts & edit by myself “The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.”  ―  Eleanor Roosevelt

phts & edit by myself  Someone once asked me, whether I am an anti-to guy? . For them, I am different from the  other girls. Haha . It's kind of weird  question actually. Do I looks like lesbian ?  Agaga..  For me,  I was happy with the people around me,just enough and yes I been disappointed in a relationship and have a very rough time to recover it, that's why I'm afraid to fall in love again.  After a year , I be single and a year I'm try to  hide and blocking my feeling to  fall in love again . But the more I run the more I am close. Allowing a stranger present in my life and want to know more than a friend,  for me is hard to do, I want to accept him but at the same time the door remains closed my heart to accept anyone.  Will you willing to wait until I am ready ?  '' Ya Allah jika dia benar untuk ku dekatkan lah hatinya dengan hati ku , jika dia bukan milikku damaikan lah hati ku deng...